How much time do you spend feeling unhappy, stressed, depressed, or disappointed? Depression is rampant in our fast-paced, competitive society, even among people with seemingly perfect lives. So many people exist in a fog of un-earned unhappiness, waiting for a better job, more money, a nicer house, a better marriage, a smaller dress-size. But the truth is, if you don’t choose happiness right now, in whatever circumstances you find yourself, you will never find it. If you are miserable in your little one-room apartment, you’ll be miserable in a nice house. If you are unhappy single, you’ll be unhappy married. If you dislike yourself at a size 14, you won’t like yourself much more at a size 4. Unhappiness breeds unhappiness, and external circumstances do very little to affect our internal world. All we can do is look for the beauty in each moment and feel gratitude for every breath we are given.
By Phillip Moffitt
Sarah (not her real name) began by relating her good news: “Well, I landed that new job I applied for, and my husband and I got through the crisis I told you about.” Her voice, however, was surprisingly rueful, as if she were reporting that life was worse than before. I felt a wave of happiness for her, but before I could say so, she went on to complain about the new job and her relationship.
Sarah is a participant in a weekly vipassana meditation class I conduct. We spend a lot of time in the class trying to understand how we create much of our own suffering by getting caught in an endless cycle of desire and attachment. Sarah was certainly exhibiting how suffering arises. What had recently seemed to be the key to her happiness—if only she could get the job and stop quarreling with her spouse, then life would be great—was now a source of dissatisfaction. Our discussion revealed that she repeatedly experienced being disappointed whenever she actually got what she sought. In response, she would create new expectations, and the cycle would repeat itself.
Without noticing it, you too may be suffering from the myriad ways in which expectations can undermine your life. I call it the tyranny of expectations. They plague your daily life, causing you to be irritable, disappointed, and disillusioned. Many times they lead you to say unkind words, act unskillfully, or make poor decisions. Expectations are so insidious that you can persist in maintaining them even after you have clear evidence that they are unfounded.
What is most amazing is that despite the suffering caused by your expectations, you hardly notice them most of the time. Sure, there may be a few big ones you are somewhat aware of, but even so, you only sort of notice them; you do not act to free yourself from their tyranny. Plus, there are countless smaller ones you never notice at all. It is only when you feel acute disappointment that you have any awareness of having been possessed by expectations. But for each of these moments of acute disappointment, you’ve experienced many hours of dissatisfaction, impatience, and tension that you never realized arose from your expectations.
Read the full article at Yoga Journal.
